I was playing around with allusion this weekend based upon a photo I found… the photo and poem actually have NOTHING to do with one another other than the subject matter. I love how the mind works though! If you’re interested in joining in a challenge that will give you opportunities to write poetry and short stories sharing your story based upon pictures and prompts, join the Become What You Once Thought Impossible Writing Challenge 2020 that kicks of Thursday!
I stood there broken and damaged thinking there would never be another way to know myself.
How does one become whole after being shattered into a trillion pieces?
I looked at his mouth moving and heard something that resembled words,
but the syllables didn’t form sounds I understood.
They fell to the ground, running away with the scattered pieces of my soul.
In silence, we stared at one another.
His arms fully outstretched,
begging for me to wrap mine around him,
while simultaneously telling me I’d never be enough.
How does one know what to do when the messages sent from one’s body language conflict so deeply?
I looked away, wondering if anything broken could ever be beautiful and realized:
life only begins once there is wreckage.
I was thinking of how sometimes people stand in front of us speaking but not saying a thing. Sometimes it’s because we are so broken, we can’t hear them and other times it is because we aren’t prepared for what they are saying. That led my mind down a trail of thinking about when I first became a Christian and how long it took to go from it being about ME and what I wanted to feel to understanding how much Christ loves me and what it meant for God to go through that loss and separation. I remember always feeling like I wasn’t enough. Who was I with what I’ve done? Who was I with my lack of education? Who was I? Me. Me. Me. Me. Me.
But then a few years ago, there was a shift and suddenly it was less and less about me and more about Him. I no longer what He could for me but truly began to ask “What can I do for you?” Years ago that question would have felt so narcissistic to me. But now I realize it was the questions I should have asked all along, and one we need to ask of everyone we meet. It is about what they can do for me but about what I can do for them.
The last line was me realizing that in all my wreckage in life, in all the times I felt fully damaged or destroyed, I’ve risen stronger. From teen mom and barely graduating high school to MBA graduate helping others grow stronger businesses and program through writing. From domestic violence victim to survivor helping women escape the belief that there is nothing better on the other side.
And when it relates to Christ, it isn’t until our ego is completely destroyed that we can fully understand the depth of his love for us.
Is there a time this made you think of? If you are willing, share your thoughts in the comments.
(I so thought I had published this on September 11th, then remembered I didn’t want to post that day because it felt tacky to me and I wasn’t sure if I wanted to break this into two posts since there is so much within it. I like to live in my integrity so I stepped away and spent time with my family, only to leave this in drafts totally forgetting I didn’t schedule it for later. As such, please know the references to “today” are actually September 11 not today. I’ve decided to share it as it is, as I am not big on editing myself unless it feels like it’s better for the writing and consumption of it.)
Last year a thought popped into my head while journaling:
I once believed I needed you to catch me. Then I realized that I too knew how to soar. ~Shell Vera
And in case you haven’t read my writing before, when I have a thought it can become just about anything from a journal prompt to a fulfilled dream. It all depends upon the day and my desire to explore it further.
This one sat for a while within the journal.
Then it made its way on my creative writing blog.
Then I started thinking about what it really meant.Read More
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What others are saying (excerpts, see the full testimonials here):
Shell’s warm and inquisitive approach to learning about me as a person and my business struggles of writing was a Godsend. She created a welcoming and trustful conversation that encouraged me to dig deep into why prior design jobs weren’t fulfilling, something that I usually glossed over with most people. … I feel more confident in writing my blogs and some social media content. Shell’s honest feedback will open up those blocked writing channels and that’s coming from a person who says “I’m not a writer, I’m a designer.” ~Marissa Gonzales, Brand Strategist | High-End Website Designer
Shell and I met in a divine way: meaning multiple things fell into place that brought me to her services. I had an epiphany to put together years of my poetry and self-publish a book. I was recommended to find a developmental editor and thus I found Shell Vera. She is SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT. First off, Shell had a grace about her that I could sense just from our quick phone call. She saw me, understood me, and envisioned for me what I did not even realize I was looking for. Our phone call later turned into a few more zoom meetings and phone calls. Her guidance/services all felt completely genuine, honest, and in my best interest (not necessarily hers). She offered advice beyond the scope of what I expected that fully gave me the confidence and resources to complete my book. She helped me narrow down my target audience, create the best introduction to my book, and made suggestions on how to market myself. I could not imagine where I would be now if she and I did not meet. To that, I am forever grateful and know Shell has so much more to offer. I highly recommend her. ~Amanda Baker, Mental Health Therapist | Author
I first connected with Shell Vera in 2019. I was booked to be a guest on her Fireside Chat Series. We had a great interview and kept in touch after that experience. Weeks later, Shell noticed that I wasn’t maximizing my Instagram page and addressed it via text. She noticed that I was sending inspirational content to my small text network but not sharing it on IG. At first I was resistant because I had a different vision for my business at the time. Then I started using the strategies she gave me. Within a few months I saw a huge spike in engagement as well as a substantial increase in sales for my services and products. If Shell hadn’t stepped up to push me towards something bigger, I wouldn’t be where I am today. I strongly recommend her services. She is knowledgeable, caring, and has a visionary lens when coaching her clients. ~Robbin Marx, Producer | Coach
Shell is easily the most compassionate, insightful, gifted, amazingly giving, artistic individual that I have ever met! Her knowledge and willingness to go the extra mile to make it happen for you is matchless! Your life can only get better with Shell in your corner! 💖🔥. Luv you girl! ~Beloved Carter, Baker
I love looking back at my old words so I can see how far I’ve come from that lonely, sad, angry, broken little girl I once was. I think of those years and see where I am today and realize that I can truly conquer anything. What makes me a good coach is that I’ve walked through so much that I’ve lived out the act of sharing my story authentically, confidently, and responsibly. That’s why I am so committed to ensuring others do the same. It’s also why I struggle to understand why I try to separate being a writer from being a coach. Writing is what led me to coaching. Seeing my brokenness transform into wholeness beyond what I ever thought possible for myself is something I wish to share with every human ready to embrace that journey.
As such, I announce a challenge to myself that I am going to extend outward to those of you who are ready to share your story and would like some encouragement along the way. This challenge is geared toward heart-centered writers, bloggers, and poets who would like to challenge themselves to go one layer deeper in the last quarter of this year.
If you are ready to step into your “Next”, let’s join together on the journey. We will take time to reflect back as we move forward and share the stories that made us who we are today.Read More
If you had a chance to release your superpower, would you? What if you didn’t know what your superpower was or how it would affect others? What if unleashing your superpower was the last act you would do on this Earth? Project Power brought up some great discussions in our home and a chance for self-reflection about whether we were living our life in a way that people see our superpowers daily.
In case you haven’t seen the trailer yet, here is a look at the premise of the film:Read More
I hope Summer is going well for everyone so far. It’s been one ride of a year. A year with much change. Much thought. Much that has been brought to the surface that has needed to be discussed for years, decades, and longer. It’s important in the craziness, depth, and intensity that we keep ourselves centered on what matters most. As a Christian, for me that is Christ. It is His Word and what He created me to be here for. It is about co-creating with Him a life in which I use my voice well and write what He has placed in my heart. It is about loving others and living a life in which I know when my time comes that I left NOTHING on the table.Read More
I was able to sit down with Damaly Shepherd back in January and she has been wowing me since! We sat down for this Fireside Chat to talk about going full-time with your side gig, the power of sticking with a goal, the importance of personal growth, and how to ensure you are being mentored even if you can’t afford a coach. The chat is chock full of helpful information for those on the brink of going full-time with their side gig as well as those who aren’t sure that going full time is right for them.
Damaly shares how she got involved in photography, why being passionate doesn’t have to be a requirement to be successful at something, and how she had the courage to leave her job to go full time in photography. In the talk, we leave nothing on the table when it comes to real talk about the fear that comes along with going full time or the two sides of the passion discussion and whether it’s needed to be truly good at something! Listen in today to see what you can take away from it and apply to your life and career.Read More
While filming videos about voice discovery and reading my poetry, I started rambling to my videographer (the talented La Chale Renee). She started filming and this is what resulted.
Don’t mistake your stillness for stagnancy. It’s okay to not be hustling and not be gaining new clients. With all that has happened in the past few months, it is ABSOLUTELY okay to sit back, listen, and have complete peace that you will be okay in your business and life by taking time to rest and refuel. Like Jesus in the boat during the storm, the world can be going chaotic around us but if we know that we are doing the Father’s business, we can have absolute peace.
Seldom do you read a book about a subject most people won’t talk about and realize you aren’t the only one in the world who experienced a heartbreaking situation while also being inspired to move forward in new ways. With most books, you walk away knowing you aren’t the only one but having few steps to put into action. Or you walk away with steps to implement but very little assurance you really aren’t alone. “Interruption” is different.
From the moment you begin reading this book, you are welcomed in Brandon and Cornieta Whitfield’s world. You sit with them and walk through one of the toughest trials and learn how God showed Romans 8:28 to be true in their life. You feel their pain and cry tears with them as they share with you the pain they experienced as Cornieta miscarried their twin babies. And you get to see how God turned their mourning into dancing as they arrived on the other side of the loss…but I won’t ruin for you how that happens.Read More